Friday, March 21, 2014

It's Friday

My second post in the same month? Whoa- can this really be?
Well, I know I have been super lazy, but I'm naturally lazy, so that's no surprise :)



Anyways, I am currently sitting in a cafe, eating pizza and reading The Moscow Times, while also listening to NPR via an app on my phone. The whole situation going on in Crimea is constantly in my face. It's all I hear and see when I turn on the t.v., and people that I meet are always wanting to know what my opinion on the whole situation is. And they also are sure to give me their take, even if I don't care to hear it because I have heard about it a million times. Actually, if this opinion is coming out of the mouth of an intelligent person, or someone I'd actually care to hear the opinion about, then that's fine. It's just annoying when strangers I meet try to get in my face and bark their opinions at me, before even asking me what I think because, maybe I agree with them, but they never even take a second to ask.
This is definitely an interesting time for me to be living in Russia. I guess trouble follows me everywhere after all lol!
    My mom keeps telling me that I should come home, but she knows how stubborn I am, and knows that I'm going to stay. Well, I'm going home next month but only for like 2 weeks. Then I'll be back here.... I hope the situation doesn't worsen while I'm away. I feel that the relationship between Russia an America is changing every single day and there are increasingly more sanctions happening. I'm kind of worried of something happening like me not being able to get back into Russia once I leave. Like, what if while I'm gone Putin does something crazy and denies entry of Americans into Russia? I mean, I doubt that will happen, but you can never be too sure. When the Jews were sent to concentration camps, I'm sure at first they didn't know they'd be off to a death camp or gas chambers. Just because something seems unlikely doesn't mean it's not possible and won't happen. Especially when we're dealing with someone like Putin. He has this kind of personality that wants to show that he won't be pushed around. The US and the EU are handing out sanctions like free candy to Russia, and the Russian government is just shrugging them off. This is pretty scary to me because I feel like, how far is russia going to let the West push before it fights back. Of course Russia has been also issuing sanctions, but I feel like those are Putin's light swings, as he's lightly swatting away a butterfly. Im worried about what will it be that breaks this camels back. Or actually, in this case, the bear's back? When there's a kid getting bullied and being cornered, yeah, at first he may not be putting up much of a fight. But there are also some if these bullied kids who then go home, and begin planning an attack to get revenge. And then one day, this kid shows up to school with his guns a blazin. This bullied kid who has everyone against him should be feared the most because there's no telling the amount of crazy behind those calm eyes. And you never know if this kid has an arsenal of weapons waiting for you in his bedroom for that day he finally has had enough. I'm pretty sure Putin has the resources and a pretty big arsenal in his bedroom.

Anyways.... more importantly, hope that the value of the ruble doesn't continue to fall or else I won't have much spending  money when I go home. I really need to buy new clothes. And bras- it's hard to find larger bras here, and then when I DO, they're ridiculously expensive, and are of crap quality.

Well, time to leave and get to work. Time to teach some Russian kids how to speak English!! :)

Tuesday, March 4, 2014

I'm a pretty Disgusting creature....

Well, the reason I gave the title of this post is because...well... I am. It's not like I'm prancing around the truth, making myself out to be this cute little princess. No, I am a dirty birdie. I knew I was quite messy, but tonight takes the cake. The only reason I am even writing this post rightnow is because I walked into my kitchen, saw how fucking gross it was, and decided....eff that.... I am not gonna start cleaning at 4AM. You see, the problem with this then becomes that the dishes pile up even more, and so does the trash.
 Here, we have a shit ton of dishes piled up...and some flowers because i started watering 'em, but didnt realize until afterwards that there were some little holes on the bottom of the flower pot.

and here....well... you can see a frickin clusterfuck of all KINDS of stuff going on..

and here we have---- trash. a big ass pile of trash. that is all.


Well....I know these pictures are pretty graphic. BUT, what may come as more surprising is that all of this stuff, is the collection of over about 3-4 days. yup. I know this looks so disgusting, but this is also the nastiest I have ever had my apartment, and I dont know why I let it get this way. If someone didnt know me, they might have seen this and though that maybe someone very close to me died, and that I was going through a depression, and was just letting everything fall to shit. But no, that's not the case. Anyone who meets me would know that I am a happy girl. Well, besides the fact that I gotta work for a shitty ass company. But other than that, I'm a happy person :) do not let the depressing pctures fool ya :)

I'm pretty confident that one day, when I finally move in with a guy OR get a roommate, I'll be clean again. Actually, I can be clean alone, but this week has consisted of me sleeping like 4 hours a day, and then coming home exhausted after work....after dealing with stupid shit.

Anyways, I wanna write more, especially about the whole ongoing crisis in Ukraine, but right now, it's 4am, and I just need to go to sleep. That way, I can wake up early tomorow to actually clean up this nasty mess I got going on in here. 

Until next time!!!! <3